living with rsd/crps

Today was a pretty hard day my RSD has moved to my left side it has caused my left hand to swell so big that I can no longer wear my wedding ring that hurts .This thing called RSD has taken so much from me and my family between not being able to do just the normal things that most women due for there families like cooking and cleaning it has taken away so much more from me personally it caused the left side of my face to atrophy so that looks horrible then it has attacked my thyroid causing me to have a full thyroidectomy so now 60 pounds later I have lost respect for myself it is hard when you try to lose weight all the time and nothing helps my body is just fighting me.I get so down on myself because of my face and my weight I hate RSD and just pray for a cure